Saturday 21 April 2012

ANGER

I'm angry. I have been told by the so called specialist that I have to lose nearly a stone in weight and I will get pregnant. She seems to think that when I lose weight my periods will come back and I'll instantly get pregnant, the thing she hasn't taken into account is my distinct lack of 'normal cycle' prior to the pill. My last period was october but I have a secret. August and October last year I took one of my pills (the contraceptive kind). I thought if I had a period, ovulation would follow. It didn't happen.
I am very angry because no-one understands. I DO NOT have PCOS, my hormones are 'normal' (in that they are flat lining) I don't have too many cysts. 
I'm sick of being treated like a stupid person, I am not stupid, I know what is wrong I just need a doctors fucking signature, but they are all too self absorbed in their 'cuts' and 'figures' that I come last.
At the fertility appointment, the nurse had to ask us if we had ever been bankrupt, had STIs, any criminal convictions and if we did drugs. the drugs thing I understand, maybe the STIs thing, but seriously, such an invasion of privacy. It was a No to all of them so we cleared that bit. 

Thank-you for all the suggestions of what I could do, I appreciate them all. Advice is so precious and I wouldn't dream of being rude, but at this point in my life I am not going to listen, I'm 20, I know everything already!! :P

Mind the corners xxx

4 comments:

  1. Hey I'm sorry that things are rough for you right now and I hope you don't mind me commenting on something I know very little about nor have experience of. I have no advice just a couple of stories: my very close friend was diagnosed with problems with her ovaries and cysts and hormonal issues etc etc nearly 10 years ago now and she was at the appointment about to have the operation to have one of her ovaries removed. They discovered at that appointment that she was in fact pregnant. There had been no fertility treatment and she had not been guarding against pregnancy because she thought it was impossible anyway. She had been told the odds were stacked up against her and yet there she was pregnant. Her son is now 8. Another friend went through a few fertility treatments which was heartbreaking and tough but eventually she had a little boy also about 10 years ago. Subsequently she was told that to have any more would require more treatment. A couple of years later having not bothered guarding against pregnancy or indeed trying she fell pregnant without any help whatsoever. I just wanted to say that stranger things do happen even when you think they can't or have been told they can't! x

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  2. Hello darlng, left a message here but it's not showing up!
    Don't give up my lovely. Seek professional alternative advice. By that I mean not just this herb or that herb as advised by kindly but lay people. It may be that no one person holds the key to unlock your fertility, but seeing different people unlocks different aspects to the problem. Seeing a variety of professionally trained and certified practitioners in alternative therapies has at the very least got to be cheaper than conventional private fertility treatment, and the journey of self discovery will never be a waste. Love you lots and lots and will help you on your journey x x x x x

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  3. hello. I've just reading your blog. I really hear your deep desire for your baby. I have friends who've been down this route. Two things that worked for them. One cut out dairy - they had an intolerance and their fallopian tubes were all gacked up with mucus.. It worked, cutting out dairy cleared out out. If you google veganism and infertility some interesting stuff comes up. Anther friend used acupuncture - here's a link to an acupuncturist i know which gives some info. I know that where she lives is prob not where you are - but info is useful - http://www.acupuncturesouthmanchester.net/ paediatric acupuncturists can be found all over the UK - and more general info here - http://www.acupuncture.org.uk/index.php?option=com_k2&view=item&id=1132:female-fertility&Itemid=106 - what motherfunker said above sounds wise.

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  4. here's a link that you might like that i just found - http://ecohearth.com/component/content/article/727-my-vegan-pregnancy-defying-infertility.html

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